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All We Have Are Distant Memories

It was elementary school when we met. 4th grade, Mr. Sommer’s class? I forgot when. But if Joraver met you in the 4th grade, I probably did too. That makes sense. Remember the G.A.T.E. program with Ms. Billington? Yeah. That was the year when we played the stock market. TWAG. Remember? Toys R Us, Wrigley, And Gap. It was me, you, and Danny in that group. Haha.

Things got even better in the 5th grade, Mrs. Dauer’s class. At the beginning of the year, we both joined Mrs. Rivas’s music program. We were in the percussion section. Dang, man. You were so good at drumming. I looked up to you. My best memory of that was when you taught me how to subdivide 8ths into 16ths for the first time. It blew my mind. Haha.

6th grade, Mr. B’s class, was awesome too. Remember when we would play football on that small strip of land next to the brick wall during recess? We had Carl, Danny, Ricky, Hastings, Carson, Joraver, Kyle, both Jordans and a bunch of other guys playing. Still wish they let us play tackle. And remember when the grass was wet, there would be contests to see who could slide the farthest? Remember when we were throwing rocks over that metal shade thing? Remember when we also played basketball? Remember the camping trip to Sonora? Haha…

But in middle school, we lost contact. Different class schedules. Different groups of friends. Different clubs. You joined a sport. I continued with band. We would see each other from time to time, but that was it. I heard about you and your girlfriend. I was happy for you. But we were already strangers.

I don’t think I saw you in high school. I think you stayed at West campus while I went to East campus. That’s probably the reason why. But Senior year, at graduation practice, I’m pretty sure I saw you when I was making my speech and walking down that aisle. When I saw you, I thought to myself, “Hey. It’s Justin. I’m happy to have become friends with that person.”

I didn’t think the next time I would hear about you would be when you died.

When I saw the Facebook posts, I was shocked. I didn’t think something like that would happen to you, especially in that new apartment complex. It was supposed to be a safe neighborhood. You died just down the street from my house. Why didn’t we hear the gunshots last night?

At first, I didn’t cry. We became strangers. But then I remembered all those memories that I had of you. I relived them in my mind. Then reality hit. You are gone. The tears came.

We may have become strangers, but we are also old friends.

This is the first time a good, old friend of mine has died. I wish there was more I could do other than to say rest in peace, to give condolences, and to hope that they catch whoever did this.

Justin Hesketh, 18, died on Tuesday, December 20, 2011, at approximately 6:00 p.m. at the cross streets of Polk and Herndon at the Palo Alto apartment complex.

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You can take your whole life to say “Yes”, but don’t take my whole life by saying “No”.

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Hey Tall Person

Being a tall person, I learned something: Tall people can reach things in high places. I can reach the top shelf in the kitchen. I can reach the rim when playing basketball. I can reach fruit from trees in the fields. But there was one thing, which I thought highly of, that I couldn’t reach: Her Heart.

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Stop Running Away

It’s only a temporary solution. Eventually, the problem will catch up to you again, and you are back where you started.

OR… You are aware that you are running away, and the fact that you dislike taking the easy way out eats away at your insides, slowly but surely. You begin to feel disappointed in yourself, knowing that you are completely capable of moving in the other direction. You begin to wonder, “Am I doing the right thing? Is this how I should handle it?” Doubt enters the mind, and the nonchalant facade begins to fade. All that’s left is self-pity and suffering. This is when you decide to take a hold of the situation. You turn around. You walk, you run, and then you sprint, facing the problem head on. Instead of the problem catching up to you, you make your own advances towards it, closing the distance.

Once you finally meet the problem, you either break through with success or you hit a wall, crash, and burn, but in my opinion, it feels so much better than running away. Just sayin’.

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Why are you here?

Kuya Ryza asked me that question at orientation. For some odd reason, I’m still thinking about it. It stuck. ._. It was the first thing he said to me. I thought sinasabi niya isang joke lang kasi it was obviously orientation. But when I gave him that answer, he asked it again. A different answer, and then the same question. He was looking for something, but I didn’t know what.

Four days later, and I’ve come up with a bunch of answers. Listing them all out would take up some space, but it can be pretty much be summed up into one thing: I want to be a better me. :)

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Orientation and Etc.

Orientation has got me even more pumped for college. Yet again, Kuya has unknowing motivated me to achieve my goals. He was in the School of Natural Sciences bidjo, and he said some pretty inspirational things. :D My academic adviser said that it’s highly discouraged to take both Bio and Chem in the same year. Meh. Challenge accepted. :P Seeing PAA again warms the heart. Excited because it’s gonna be Modern, Choir, and possibly Cultural. I wonder who is going to be my official Ate/Kuya. And Mom (Ate Siyarin) is turning me into a Bboy. I’ll see how that goes… :P And Kpop. Lots and lots of Kpop. Courtesy of Ate Rachel and Ate Blaine. :)

P.S. to myself - Get on Tumblr more. >.>

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happyflip27 asked: ADING!!!!..i didn't know you had a tumblr :D...welcome :D <3

Yup. Ate Lilo got me into the Tumblr business. :P It’s hard finding people because there aren’t friends lists and no one uses their name. Kinda lost. xD

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ohmysunnie asked: Hello Ading! it's ate Fatima:)

Hi Ate! :D How are you?

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